New set up of Blogger

This new set up of blogger is really driving me nuts. It is actually harder to find the posts I want to read as well as harder for me to post when I am ready to post.

I feel like my world is slowly closing in on me. They wonder why I quit trying to be Super Mom. I gave up when they stopped appreciating what I do and started taking advantage of the fact that I am here to do it. Clothes are left strung out all over the house. Books and papers on every flat surface that can be found. I say pick it up and they just look at me like I am absolutely nuts. Why should they clean up after themselves, That is what I am here for right?

Besides the fact that I feel like my family completely takes advantage of me, I am having a hard time with Husband. We are in the process of trying to get our mortgage modified and he is so worried that we are going to lose the house that he is taking it out on me. I know he doesn't mean it. He is just so distant. I used to go sit in the garage with him every day after he came home from work. Now if I do that he just acts like I am not even there. I don't think he realizes how much he is hurting me.

I am so stressed out right now, between Robbie acting as if I don't exist and the kids treating me like a doormat and the whole house thing. I am wanting to start picking things up for the kids for Christmas so I am not rushing around like a fool trying to get it done right before Christmas but I can't. I don't know yet if I am going to have a house for my kids to have a Christmas in.

I try so very hard to make sure that everything is together and that I am getting things done that need to be but these last few days I have felt like absolute crap. I know Robbie thinks that I am just being lazy and that I would rather read than clean the house, Well Right now I would because in the books I don't have to deal with all of this that is going on out here in the real world. I just have to pretend that everything is ok.

I am starting to feel a little better now that I have gotten all of this off of my chest. Maybe I will go an do those dishes now and clean up the living room. The Kids Are Cleaning the Dining Room and their rooms as soon as they get home from school.

blogging

Thinking about starting a blog. One that I do daily or at least weekly. One where I can post recipes and other cool stuff and maybe even one on the awesome hairstyles that I use for meets for my daughter. I am looking for a way to earn a few bucks while staying at home and this seems like the most logical way to do that. Thanks to pintrest I can have people follow me a whole lot easier and then I can get a few extra bucks, for things like redecorating my house......

Have You Ever had One of Those Days?

     Have you ever had one of those days, where nothing seems like it is going to go right? For me, today was one of those days.  
     My day started off bad. An argument while I was still in bed. My loving husband went to bed without eating dinner and was hungry when he woke up. We are on a tight budget this week and he ran out of his spending money yesterday and forgot to remind me that he wanted me to make his lunches for work this week. I would have gladly gotten out of bed 30 minutes early to make him a lunch for work. I just forgot he wanted me to do that. Since he was already angry from being hungry that made every thing worse. A cup that wasn't washed properly, caused him to dump an entire pitcher of iced tea in the sink. Me offering him some cash that I have on hand resulted in him bringing up the banking mistake I made last week causing us to be in this bind. You get the picture. 
     Finally, he left for work and it was time for me to start the day. Getting our four children up and ready for the day. Three off to school and one up and ready to play. For once the older three got up, dressed, gave me folders to sign, and were out the door without a hitch. The toddler, however, decided he was not going to be very cooperative today.
     I was upset from my morning argument with my husband and was taking time to cool off. I was watching a television show that I had recorded from the night before.In the span of 45 minutes William had managed to get a bowl of cereal from the table, his sister left it there because she decided that she was going to eat breakfast at school, take it to his room and dump it on the floor. He picked up that bowl of cereal, took it back to the kitchen and dumped it into a cup of orange juice. He then dug out all of the door trim from a closet (we are remodeling); pulled out and tore apart a crystal growing kit; got an orange, two green bananas and a butter knife out and tried to make fruit salad. After all of that had been cleaned up he decided that he was going to get the paint cans out and build a paint castle. Luckily he can't open them. Thankfully he went down for a nap and I was able to make my house resemble something that looks like picked up just in time for him to wake up and start destroying my stuff. A ceramic elephant that was my great grandmothers. I do not know what I am going to do with that boy today. Maybe I will take him outside so we can plant a few plants I bought before they die. Then a hair cut and a bath. 
     Here's hoping tomorrow will bring about a much better day! Because this one sucked!

Figuring out what I want to do with my life.

It is official! I will never be a nurse... Not that I don't like nursing or that I don't like helping people. I just cannot manage to get through the first Anatomy class that I need to take to become a nurse. I have taken this class twice. This time I am getting a better grade than last time ans as long as I pass I don't care but I am not cut out for this type of schooling. I have never been good at science but I thought that I would give it a try and see if maybe hard work would help me get through the class. I study like crazy and still can't seem to get a decent grade on a test. I have said before that I wanted to go into office management, but Robbie say's I am not cut out for that either because I am too nice. I need to figure out what I want to do and get this schooling done so that I can get a good paying job and make some money so we can start doing things; Like going on vacation.  

Schedules

I am having a hard time trying to schedule my time. I used to be very good at it and lately I don't seem to have the concept of time down any more. The only thing that is still on a good schedule is William. He wakes up at 7 am, nps from about 10:30 to 1 and then goes to bed around 8 or 8:30.
I am all of a sudden having problem with the family finances and it seems like it is all crashing down on me. Who knows. I know I need to work on getting it all back together before the summer and everything goes haywire for real. I just don't know what to do.
Here I am complaining about my petty little problems when there are so many out there who don't have anything and yet they complain about nothing.
Ahhhh. Oh Well I will get it all figured out.